Be still...

I often find myself only finding time to blog in the middle of the night. The house is finally quiet except for the rhythmic breathing of the kids and David's annoying, yet somehow comforting snore. It is in these moments I find myself most reflective of the day and finally taking in every little moment that we all had together.

Tonight I was laying in bed watching my favorite Sunday night show "Brothers and Sisters". After it ended I wondered what's next? God spoke to me unexpectedly, as he often does, "Be still and know that I am here". I thought ok this had got be good, God is speaking to me clearly, this is what I have been waiting for! So I waited and...nothing. To say I was dissappointed doesn't even begin to explain how I felt. So I rolled out of bed and started talking to God, dissappointed that he hadn't revealed an answer to my recent questions that I have been hounding him about lately. I am nothing if not persistent when I want something. It wasn't until much later that I felt him speak to my heart again asking "Isn't it enough to know I am with you?". OK. He got me. I have been struggling with God lately. I have been looking for and asking questions and He has been very quiet. As you may have guessed silence wasn't in my plan and I have been frustrated with this silence. In that moment I realized it is enough that He is beside me if I just let it be.

I have been reading an interesting blog the last few days and would suggest it to anyone. It is written by Angie Smith and it is titled "Bring the Rain". I will probably blog about it more in detail at a later time but for now let me just say that she has an amazing walk to share.

The thing that most intrigued me was when she talked about her plan versus God's plan. Uh-oh this can't bee good? Yes all my friends I know what you are thinking "Don't mess with Amy's plan." I have a plan for everything the hour, the day, the year, etc. And if the first one doesn't work out I probably have at least 3 other back ups and if those don't work just give me five minutes. I am type A and I like things my way. I want my expectations always met and unfortunately God doesn't work that way. He has a plan all of His own and it is always plan A.