Anxiety

Almost midnight here yet I am awake and a bundle of nerves. I haven't been sleeping well lately just so many thoughts, questions, fears, and excitement building up that I can't seem to funnel in to something positive. You all know me and how anxious I can become. It is no secret that the last several years I struggled at times even with the help of medication. I guess that is just a personality trait that I have that seems to have become more of a problem in recent years. Makes sense if you think about it. Childhood,at least mine, was pretty easy so even though I think the trait has always been there it has become more pervasive in recent years. I fought the idea of medication for a long time. I think there is just a stigma there that I was afraid of but I have come to accept that it helps me function as a real person and more importantly a mother. Not to mention it is nice to have all you who accept me just the way I am. Crazy or not:)

So lets see what is om my mind tonight that is ridiculous and causing me to stay up this late. Maybe if I blog it out I can get some sleep. Here is a short list. Please laugh with me because when I have these panic attacks sometimes it is the only way to keep from crying;)

How much damage can Obama do to this country in 4 years??? I am guessing quite a bit with most of it being to my pocket book.

Why in the world is my heart burn back? Maybe I have a heart issue? Maybe a valve prolapse? Or maybe I watch way too much Grey's Anatomy??? You think?

Am I damaging my children by moving them? Oh come on I know what you are all thinking. I have probably damaged already letting them watch so much Noggin. Hey, somedays I praise God for Noggin!

Is the inspector going to pass our roof? Yeah I know we would have to get a contract before worrying about that. You know what on second thought we might need to list the house first? Hmmm...

Those spiders on the history channel were creepy. Maybe they live in the basements in PA just like all those ghosts you have been watching Tammy? LOL

Do you see how ridiculous and ludicrous these thoughts get?

In one of my previous blogs I wrote about how I always have a plan for everything. Well let me tell you it is really easy to have a plan for everything when you stay up half the night exploring every possible turn a situation can take. It also means you will be exhausted in the morning and probably make your children late for school.

Pray for me.