Prayers Needed

I have been stressed lately. I fill like my plate is just overflowing with to do lists that I never seem to be able to complete. I am aggravated with myself for letting life stress me out in such a manner and that only makes me stress out more. It is a vicious circle and I have been praying numerous times a day for help because I feel like I am a train wreck that can't be stopped.

Many of you know that I struggle with anxiety and panic attacks. I take a daily medication to try and keep things under control but the more stress that builds in my life the less likely I am to effectively ward off the most severe of these attacks. My biggest fear is the fear of having these attacks in public or anyone knowing what a mess I truly am.

This would explain why in the midst of grocery shopping today the tears over took me and I had a minor meltdown in the middle of Walmart. I am sure I left plenty of other customers wondering what in the world had happened to that lady in the detergent aisle that was a complete wreck. The whole time I was was praying for God to help me calm myself and get through this moment. I prayed over every worry I was having and begged God to help me let go of them.

I hate that I am a worrier and control freak. I started searching the bible today and do you know just how many times we are told not to worry? More than I could count. My favorite verse of the day is one I found in Philippians chapter 4


6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. 7 Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

I really needed this reminder today. I needed to hear His word, His encouragement, and feel His love in a moment where I felt alone and extremely overwhelmed. I was also reminded that I need to not only pray but I need to ask others to pray with/for me. I love you all so much and I need your help.

So please pray for me!

Pray that I can pass control of all situations to Christ and lay them at his feet. Pray that I will find a peace in this that consumes me and allows me to be the wife and mother that my husband and children need.

Amy